I turn to the clock and the red LCD lights flash 2:00 a.m. I have yet to fall asleep. I rest my head on my pillow and have laid awake enveloped in my comforting sheets.
Thoughts constantly invade my mind. I’m constantly second guessing myself. I’m constantly questioning myself. Did I do the right thing? Did I say the right thing? Did I act the right way?
The truth is I’m afraid. I’m afraid of what’s out there. I’m afraid of rejection. I’m afraid of commitment. I’m afraid of love.
I’m so afraid that I put myself in denial. I make up these lame excuses to shield myself. I trap my heart behind a wall that I’ve delicately created. I fight my feelings with what I think is logical.
In the end, I have to bite back my insecurities and be fearless. I’ll never truly know what will happen unless I find the courage to experience the world. Sometimes you just have to jump then fall.